prety fingernails

Sunday morning I was on the phone with my friend Tiffany. We were chatting away about who knows what, when my baby said she had to go potty. I could see into my bathroom from my bed where I was still laying, so I told her go ahead. I wasn't staring her down or anything, but I could see out of the corner of my eye that she was sitting on the potty. After a few minutes she finishes, gets down flushes etc. She doesnt immediately come out. When I call her, out she comes, with the biggest grin on her face saying "mommy, you like my pretty fingernails?" On her stubby little fingers...each one of them, were 5 tampon applicators! I tried not to freak out. I told Tiffany, "she has tampon applicators on her fingers" and Tiff freaks out with "OMG where are the tampons, she didnt put them in her did she?" I'm thinking, no freaking way. I did however go into the bathroom and say "where did you put the rest of them?" and she says, "in the trash". know what was in the trash? nothing. they were USED tampon applicators. not new ones. NOT NEW ONES. I swallowed down the vomit that was rising in my throat and told her to throw them away, which she did, while saying "whats wrong mommy, why mommy?" I told to just do it, and then go to her bathroom and wash her hands. she's like "ok mommy, why mommy?" I was SO grossed out. she throws them away, goes to her bathroom, washes her hands and comes back. "all better, mommy?" she asks.

man oh man. I stayed calm, so I was pretty impressed, but how freaking gross. I never in a million years thought she'd be digging in my bathroom toilet. and they were wrapped up too! And in my defense, I had just "finished" needing to use them, or they'd have never been in there... it grosses me out to let them sit in the trash, even though I wrap them in about a half roll of toilet paper. What I can't figure out is how she got 5 unwrapped in like 6.2 seconds... I mean, what made her even think to unwad tp from the trash can?

Who knows, I guess, but it was certainly the highlight of my weekend! lol

he's gone

Ok, so its been like 4 days and I'm already beyond ready for it to be over with. Part of me is super-pissed bc he's out partying and having a great time, living the single life already. not that I really care, but I guess I just want him to care. I want him to be sitting at his parent's house depressed and sad, wanting to work things out, willing to do whatever it takes to come home. I want him to be miserable. But he's not, he's loving it. Which just tells me more than anything that I'm doing the right thing. It's not even bothering him to be gone. I guess I'm mostly pissed because I want him to be something he'll never be. A decent person. he just doesn't have it in him. that much is obvious.

To top it all off, all the good shows have already had their season finale's so I'm home alone watching reruns. not that he and I were ever in the same room when he was here anyway. I just have a lot on my mind, and a lot to deal with, this is going to be hard, and he's out having the time of his life. its just frustrating.

and I'm even more pissed cause I dont know why I even care. Oh well at least I dont have to work tomorrow. Hooray for national holidays!

In case you couldnt tell....I didnt go to work today. I'm not sure my title is gramatically correct, so bite me! I was so very nauseous this morning that I thought I might die, so I called in sick. Then, I got to feeling better, and called to tell them I was coming, and they told me to keep my cooties at home. lol So...I sat at home and I painted my porch some more. I'm so very proud of myself. Have I bragged yet? NO? OK!Saturday, I rescreened my entire 200+ sqft porch by myself... I bought a roll of screen and my mom held it while I measured it to cut, and the rest of it I pretty much did alone. So, I rescreened the porch, put up lattice, put up siding, and then painted the inside. I painted it a pale yellow, and today I did all the white trim. I'm going to tear up the indoor/outdoor carpet and paint the concrete slab floor. Not sure what color would look good...open to suggestions.Anyway, enough bragging, although I am terribly proud of myself! :) So goodnight all.

One more time
Yeah,that's what I said back a couple of times ago
Thank you
Kindly for reminding me I'm good to go

I'm gone
And I'm taking all my good stuff
Gone,gone
You'll never get it back
I'm gone,gone
Been a long time coming
Bet you're gonna miss me bad

That's right
This party isn't all that it's cracked up to be
Yeah,boy
You gotta grab yourself a partner but don't look at me

I'm gone
And I'm taking all my good stuff
Gone,gone
You'll never get it back
I'm gone,gone
Been a long time coming
Bet you're gonna miss me bad

Hey you
Yeah,you there with that smug look smeared across your face
That's right
I've got better things to do then hang around this place

I'm gone
And I'm taking all my good stuff
Gone,gone
You'll never get it back
I'm gone,gone
Been a long time coming
Bet you're gonna miss me bad